the one i love

Some days I gets so overwhelmed with happiness and excitement of having Judah in our lives.  Mainly, because I'm already thinking about who he'll be and what he'll be like.  One thing I pray for him is to have the same sweet, gentle, and loving spirit that his dad does.

A few mornings ago, I got into the car after Joel had an elder meeting the night before and not only was it full, but when I turned on my car, this song came on.  Without a doubt, I knew he did it on purpose (mainly because I don't have the CD in my car and it's winter, which means David Gray is on Joel's rotating playlist).  Of course  once I heard the chorus sing, "Tell the repo man / And the stars above /  You're the one I love," I started crying (thank you hormones), and thought about our wedding (David Gray's "Be Mine" was our 1st dance song), then I thought about the last 4 years and how wonderful and easy being married to Joel is, and then of course the new season of life we are currently in.  So much to be thankful for and so many memories came flooding from just a small, simple gesture.

I asked Joel a few days later if he did that on purpose and he confirmed my suspicions.  He loves music, but its the lyrics that are his favorite.  It made me think back to the first unofficial time he told me he loved me.  I don't know the name of the song, but he had made me a CD for Valentines Day a month before we started dating, and there was a certain song on there that he told me to listen to when I got in the car. The song repeated something about love, but being the clueless girl that I was, I didn't even read too much into it. Later after we had "I loved you,"  he brought it up and asked me I got it then. :)

Little did I know that it was only the beginning of him proclaiming his feelings through my stereo. I pray Judah speaks through song as well to those he loves.  It is such a wonderful way to feel loved and valued.